2 months ago with 1 notes

It really sucks to be a woman who is in love with Bill Sykes.  

It kills me to feel this love for him that I as Cierra have never felt. 

But I feel Nancy. I feel her and how she yearns for him, even though he doesn’t always treat her right.

And it sucks because it takes me back, and I hate it, but I love her, and Nolan’s a dear, and I just.

“Do you know who you are and WHAT you are?”

And it kills me, because I am alone. Disliked by most and tolerated by others. 

I mean nothing to most everyone.

I’m just a silly girl. 

Being thrown around and told how worthless I am each day, while entirely believable thanks to his amazing performance, is almost too believable sometimes. 

I hate being in love with someone because it reminds me how nobody loves me. 

And as I don’t want ‘em to neither, for fear of holding someone back, I keep to my own usually. 

It doesn’t mean that I don’t wish to be held every once in a while. 

The only time I ever am is just before I’m thrown to the ground, and the bruises speak for themselves. 

I don’t know. I’m not complaining. I love every minute of working with Nolan, and being Nancy is a dream come true. It is my revenge, my chance to rise above all that has happened to me. 

It’s just that sometimes Cierra wishes that she could love someone too. 

Even though she understands how much it kills Nancy inside. 


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